October Go Away

meg

Megan “Little Little” Jaret… Did you ever know that you’re my hero

How beautiful the tree colored lanes
Vividly vibrant and richly chromatic
Crisp morning air filling up incognito
Evenings chill settling in so dramatic

Innocent faces in Halloween masks
Bags full of trick or treat sweetness
That was the October that I once knew
In peaceful autumnal completeness

But on a precarious cold day one October
Hearts were wrenched straight outta our chest
Our baby girl taken away in an ambulance
Left us profoundly confused and depressed

After one year of hospitals doctors and testing
Another October morn came around to betray
That day all of our hopes prayers and dreams
In one harsh second were all washed away

Much too distinctly I remember that moment
So clearly do I envision the sad in your eyes
Our final day of all the tears shared together
Etched in regret cried our final good byes

We knew that your pain was monumental
It made our hearts overflow with dismay
Letting go was so dramatically painful
October won’t you just please go away

Cruelly each year we are choked with a flashback
Of the worst possible days in both of our lives
The harshest month of the year is upon us
With merciless regularity again October arrives

Filled with thirty one days of emotional torture
We attempt to force our misery down underneath
But something draws us to that one vivid morning
We stared speechlessly numb and unable breathe

A parents reflection should only consist
Of holding hands with unsolicited smile
Not the burden of carrying recollection
Of bitter days from the loss of their child

Time now passes by with tremendous effort
Relearning how to live and to manage the grief
But all of our bitter October anniversaries
Are far too short on sparing us any relief

So October please hurry past without haste
It hurts us both all this month every day
If mercy is real please let it be tangible
October won’t you just…….. go away

Love you Mighty Meg
Peace

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