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Corridor of Death

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gates-of-hell

 

(Freestyle Post-Beat /Street Tempo Mix)
Bad memories like phantoms
Actors of my Divine Comedy
Circling the layers of Hell
Questioning my honesty
The corridor of the inferno
Hatred burns from every pore
The sound that I was fearing
My name whispered behind a door

Kick it……

Got a call from Satan but I kept him waitin’
Cuz I ain’t freighting for no demon hatin’
I’m going straight into a world where
My fate is anticipating my death
My last fucking breath the bottom of my depth
But it’s not your concern I’m in Dante’s inferno
A journey of no returnin’ and so much burnin’
I’m hurtin’

Facing down my demons always busy scheming
Without reason for the screaming and the streaming
About an agreement of redeeming my soul
That’s leaving without beaming to the lord
But I’m ignored because he’s bored
And until my faiths restored there’s no reward
But water boarding by the horned one
I’m being scorned on my way to Hell
Oh well

Slow it down now……
The waters of my River fill with blood
Bones styx and stones block my path
Deliver me to circles down the hall
The corridors of anger hate and wrath
Where I’m a dead man walking
Down Dante’s corridor of doom
Pays no attention to our good deeds
To him it’s just a room
Verily he grabs me by my hand
Motioning down the hall of gore
Showing me the path of destiny
My name now written on that door
Kick it one more time…….

Time to meet the great tormentor
At the epicenter the wraith dementer
Death the presenter of dissent or
Is this all just another fucking lie
Say come inside and learn to die
The truth you seek is one big lie
The god you praise is petrified
Been sacrificed on Mount Sinai
Come quantify your sacrifice
Inside
Showing me the path of destiny
The death that lay in front of me
My image in flames of effigy
Enemies scream in ecstasy
An ember is all that’s left of me
I’ve reached my life expectancy
Because I lack integrity
Failure is my legacy
Words will ring in eulogy
He tried so hard but couldn’t see

Abandon all hope all ye who enter
Too late be a repenter

Existential Clock

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an e clock

 

 

It all just dissipates
Everything you are
Disappears in a second
A million breaths in the air
A billion heartbeats silent
The world fades
Steam on a mirror
Smoke off a candle
Just gone
Forever

 

Memories never move
They stay where they lay
Leave when they’re forgotten
Like a dream in sleep erased
Abandoned when you wake
Or when you don’t
Everything passes
Time in a handful of sand
Slipping through my fingers
Waves crash to the shore
Then disappear into the sea
Here then gone
With the pulsing of a second
The existential clock ticking
Life is so precious
Be your own pilot
Fly your own vision

 
Waiting creates stress
Tomorrow keeps secrets
Until it becomes today
This moment is reality
No one lives yesterday
With the ticking of every second
Each heartbeat moves forward
Away from our birth
Closer to death
Each second wondering
If it will be that special tock
The stopping of the clock
When everything is gone
Except a distant memory
In someone else’s mind
Fairy tales fade
The existential clock spinning
We are precious
Live life now

 

Time is a vapor
Fogged on the stars
Shooting across the nightscape
Here then gone
A quantum tale to be told
Non linear progression
Seconds reflected in a speculum
A familiar song
A smile unobserved
An image left behind
My memories are not for me
But for you
Yours to clutch tightly
I give them to you
Memories are the morning dew
Like trying to hold onto a cloud
You can carry them with you
Until your song ends
The existential clock
Runs out one day
Redemption becomes obsolete
There is no ever after
Live and love in peace

Carlos and The Age Of Aquarius (A cryptic mythic revelation of Music)

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abraxas

 

A cryptic mash up free flowing tale of the spirituality of Carlos Santana and various mythological characters with a little hippie legend tossed in……..

This is the dawning of the Age Of Aquarius
Golden living dreams of visions and The minds true liberation
When the moonflower is in the seventh house
And Jingo aligns its Evil Ways……Carlos flies

 

The Pumas guitar sang me a tune
Revealing a painting hung on ancient wall
There the image of the whore I had once berated
Calling her name as I made love to my mother
My beloved Abraxas squealing delightful
Daughter of the clawed feline devil
Angel who shared my very own womb
I half god Castor the true son of Leda
Born of the rape by the swan chameleon
Hath stabbed to death my devious father
The frozen heart of Damien stopped
Vile chilled slayer of Pollex Gemini
But my deeds are etched deep in stone
Upon the hill of the angel Gabriel
Messenger of the creator on high
Mystic crystal revelation
Play on Carlos

 
As my sword pierced the burning spirit
A huge crowd sings of soul sacrifice
The Morning Glories fade to crimson
The whore of the Caravanserai pauses
Clutching me tight to her breast
Filling my mouth with lactic lifeblood
Offering me an oedipal choice
Take the life of Sophocles and the bed of Jocasta awaits
The rape of my mother and murder of my father
Blessed by the oracle of Delphi
The four elements remained in riddle
Revealing the Sphinx as a fraudulent god
So I destroyed the body of the lion
But the spirit of the head remained
Inscribed in the kingdom of Babylon
Sympathy and trust abounding
No more falsehoods or derisions
Play on Carlos

 
The whispers of my love stricken Rhea
Sobbing behind a forbidden wall of sin
Begged me with tears most amorous
My brother please take away my virginity
Give fully yourself unto Magna Mater
Water bearer of my daughter Gaia
Sister of the father husband Cronos
Blessed incestuous communion
Now the face of the lion Borboletta
One of many morphed in the mane
Layered egos in regal camouflage
Brother father and raper of Europa
Bearing the fruit from the loin of Zeus
The hallucinations of the abalone bull
A song sung in voices Supernaturel
I begged of him strum his lyre once more
To escape me this life of indescribable pain
The Aztec Archer drew back tight his bow
Firing his arrow across the entire world
His message of peace love and music
And then he played a Samba for me
All I had to do was listen
Let peace guide the planets and love steer the stars
Play on Carlos

 

Existential Road Trip

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journey

 

 

Journey of essence
To the center of self
Illuminating the awareness of all being
Pursuit of the light
Beacon of knowledge
Without eyes lie the truth of  all-seeing

 

A journey too far
To travel by foot
Paths that are littered with ominous dangers
Temptations abound
Tricksters are many
Offering treats of avarice masked in chambers

 

No one travels alone
Be in good company
Because the road can be eerily undetermined
Come take my hand
I’ll shoulder the load
Together unscramble a life giving sermon

 
The destination omega
To a wonderful world
The place where everyone’s dreams are conceived
Histories are written
Prophecies fulfilled
A fantasy that must be lived before its believed

 
Tread careful the avenues
Streets possess extra eyes
Recording our visions profound and soul deep
Sights that will take you
To the edge of the universe
Where mourning willows laugh as the hyena’s weep

 
But its not the destination
It’s the trip ethereal
The peace we search for must surely depend
On crossing river Styx
With paradigms of absolution
The final mile we will all make amends

 

 
All of us must embark on our own journey, and once we accomplish the search of our selves to figure out who we are the journey becomes enjoyable. Our paths are exclusive to ourselves but our destinations remain the same. It’s a path to enlightenment, or nirvana, salvation in heaven, rebirth, the collective consciousness, next phase, astral plane, or maybe just another rung on the ladder of life. Does it even matter? It takes a far better person than I to answer such profound queries but what I do know is no matter where or when or how we end up, we will all be there together

NO IFS, ANDS, OR BUTS

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dad

 

 

A Little Ditty of Dads Advice
Stand up for yourself
You need to have guts
If he hits you hit back
No ifs ands of or buts

Work hard in school
Don’t become a putz
Get your diploma
No ifs ands or buts

You all need haircuts
You look like lost mutts
Find yourselves a job
No ifs ands or buts
You need to stand up tall
No time to be a klutz
I can’t stay here forever
No if ands or buts

Raise your own family
Love has no shortcuts
Give all of yourself
No if ands or buts
When its time for me to go
When I strut my final struts
Smile and carry on
No if ands or buts
I made a lot of mistakes in my quest to be a good Dad, but I always tried to keep the torch lit so I could pass it to my children. My kids have kept the torch lit showing the way for their own families and have done a far better job than I did which is how it should be if progress has any hope of moving forward. I am very proud of my children despite my shortcomings they have prevailed and excelled as parents which is a job suitable only for someone who can handle the daily parental pressures of be driven nuts. No ifs ands or buts.
HAPPY FATHERS DAY

Hate, a Freestyle Rhyme

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grave

 

Rhyme in double time

Hate ain’t worth my shit
So why are so many people so damned full of it
Hating on people who disagree
I hate hate so why hate me
People are spewing and stewing acrimonious
With  copious associates of holiness that preach loneliness
But they’re so fucking erroneous its near felonious
Just let it be
Don’t hate me
I don’t share your views or watch your favorite news
That’s no excuse to expose verbal abuse on the innocent few
Because your anger stews
Bury your hate in your own backyard
Stand guard down the boulevard
Shoot a criminal without a card
Stand your ground
The right to kill is profound
If you’re white and homebound or have your money way uptown
You can kill with impunity
The white community gives you immunity if the victim lacks opportunity
Use affluenza as the cleanser
Disenfranchised is a prize  to despise
A head to hang on your wall
Because tree limbs they fall
Aren’t you embarrassed at all?
Skin like charcoal hanging from your flagpole
You asshole!
He’s human he has a soul
A wife and children too just like you
Seeking sanctuary
Before you put them in the mortuary
An age old story
Which is always their fate
When people love to hate

Oh my God it’s the KKK
I see a man with a rifle looking my way
His eyes think I want to take his guns away
I say no way but  he runs away
We only want to make sure you don’t shoot your way
Using a Regan Ray gun star war death ray
Defend yourself that’s okay but don’t kill a man cause you don’t like his way
With bullets and blood on your fingers
The white hooded hatred lingers
Hiding in churches of right-wing singers
Speaking of God but hating  n-gers
Despicable religion of hate
Its not to late
But…
Its mind blowing
Hateful embers glowing anger growing
Knowing that were rowing into Hell with water flowing
The hostility is showing  listing to ill winds blowing
While I’m reaping what I’m sowing and so on and so on
Woe is all of us who go on trying to show love
Man of cloth singing Jesus
Leads us in songs of libel
The misplaced preacher stabs me with his Bible
Wants to kill me I’m his rival for his own holy survival
For my lifestyle
Because I may be an abomination
Another rendition of his Heavenly contrition
Asking for sedition of a manic condition
While he seeks admonition from a burly mortician
Which is the definition of my premonition I will die of his volition
Because he hates my position
Like it’s a vicious religious sickness
But whoever I decide to have lie beside me
Isn’t  in need of his forgiveness
Because it ain’t none of his damn business
Let us live it without a  suspicious witness judging how we live
We all have love to give
Let’s regurgitate hate
With our love we regulate
Black gay or straight
Don’t carry the weight of your hate
Heavy lies the onus its never too late to
Eradicate the spite of hate and make it cease
Replace your scorn
With love and peace
Please hear our plea’s for peace

 

Because it ain’t none of his damn business
Let us live it without a suspicious witness judging how we live
We all have love to give
Let’s regurgitate hate
With our love we regulate
Black gay or straight
Don’t carry the weight of your hate
Heavy lies the onus its never too late to
Eradicate the spite of hate and make it cease
Replace your scorn
With love and peace
Please hear our plea’s for peace

Rhyme in double time

Hate ain’t worth my shit
So why are so many people so damned full of it
Hating on people who disagree
I hate hate so why hate me
People are spewing and stewing acrimonious
With copious associates of holiness that preach loneliness
But they’re so fucking erroneous its near felonious
Just let it be
Don’t hate me
I don’t share your views or watch your favorite news
That’s no excuse to expose verbal abuse on the innocent few
Because your anger stews
Bury your hate in your own backyard
Stand guard down the boulevard
Shoot a criminal without a card
Stand your ground
The right to kill is profound
If you’re white and homebound or have your money way uptown
You can kill with impunity
The white community gives you immunity if the victim lacks opportunity
Use affluenza as the cleanser
Disenfranchised is a prize to despise
A head to hang on your wall
Because tree limbs they fall
Aren’t you embarrassed at all?
Skin like charcoal hanging from your flagpole
You asshole!
He’s human he has a soul
A wife and children too just like you
Seeking sanctuary
Before you put them in the mortuary
An age old story
Which is always their fate
When people love to hate
Oh my God it’s the KKK
I see a man with a rifle looking my way
His eyes think I want to take his guns away
I say no way but he runs away
We only want to make sure you don’t shoot your way
Using a Regan Ray gun star war death ray
Defend yourself that’s okay but don’t kill a man cause you don’t like his way
With bullets and blood on your fingers
The white hooded hatred lingers
Hiding in churches of right-wing singers
Speaking of God but hating n-gers
Despicable religion of hate
Its not to late
But…
Its mind blowing
Hateful embers glowing anger growing
Knowing that were rowing into Hell with water flowing
The hostility is showing listing to ill winds blowing
While I’m reaping what I’m sowing and so on and so on
Woe is all of us who go on trying to show love
Man of cloth singing Jesus
Leads us in songs of libel
The misplaced preacher stabs me with his Bible
Wants to kill me I’m his rival for his own holy survival
For my lifestyle
Because I may be an abomination
Another rendition of his Heavenly contrition
Asking for sedition of a manic condition
While he seeks admonition from a burly mortician
Which is the definition of my premonition I will die of his volition
Because he hates my position
Like it’s a vicious religious sickness
But whoever I decide to have lie beside me
Isn’t in need of his forgiveness
Because it ain’t none of his damn business
Let us live it without a suspicious witness judging how we live
We all have love to give
Let’s regurgitate hate
With our love we regulate
Black gay or straight
Don’t carry the weight of your hate
Heavy lies the onus its never too late to
Eradicate the spite of hate and make it cease
Replace your scorn
With love and peace
Please hear our plea’s for peace

Rhyme in double time

Hate ain’t worth my shit
So why are so many people so damned full of it
Hating on people who disagree
I hate hate so why hate me
People are spewing and stewing acrimonious
With copious associates of holiness that preach loneliness
But they’re so fucking erroneous its near felonious
Just let it be
Don’t hate me
I don’t share your views or watch your favorite news
That’s no excuse to expose verbal abuse on the innocent few
Because your anger stews
Bury your hate in your own backyard
Stand guard down the boulevard
Shoot a criminal without a card
Stand your ground
The right to kill is profound
If you’re white and homebound or have your money way uptown
You can kill with impunity
The white community gives you immunity if the victim lacks opportunity
Use affluenza as the cleanser
Disenfranchised is a prize to despise
A head to hang on your wall
Because tree limbs they fall
Aren’t you embarrassed at all?
Skin like charcoal hanging from your flagpole
You asshole!
He’s human he has a soul
A wife and children too just like you
Seeking sanctuary
Before you put them in the mortuary
An age old story
Which is always their fate
When people love to hate
Oh my God it’s the KKK
I see a man with a rifle looking my way
His eyes think I want to take his guns away
I say no way but he runs away
We only want to make sure you don’t shoot your way
Using a Regan Ray gun star war death ray
Defend yourself that’s okay but don’t kill a man cause you don’t like his way
With bullets and blood on your fingers
The white hooded hatred lingers
Hiding in churches of right-wing singers
Speaking of God but hating n-gers
Despicable religion of hate
Its not to late
But…
Its mind blowing
Hateful embers glowing anger growing
Knowing that were rowing into Hell with water flowing
The hostility is showing listing to ill winds blowing
While I’m reaping what I’m sowing and so on and so on
Woe is all of us who go on trying to show love
Man of cloth singing Jesus
Leads us in songs of libel
The misplaced preacher stabs me with his Bible
Wants to kill me I’m his rival for his own holy survival
For my lifestyle
Because I may be an abomination
Another rendition of his Heavenly contrition
Asking for sedition of a manic condition
While he seeks admonition from a burly mortician
Which is the definition of my premonition I will die of his volition
Because he hates my position
Like it’s a vicious religious sickness
But whoever I decide to have lie beside me
Isn’t in need of his forgiveness
Because it ain’t none of his damn business
Let us live it without a suspicious witness judging how we live
We all have love to give
Let’s regurgitate hate
With our love we regulate
Black gay or straight
Don’t carry the weight of your hate
Heavy lies the onus its never too late to
Eradicate the spite of hate and make it cease
Replace your scorn
With love and peace
Please hear our plea’s for peaceRhyme in double time

Hate ain’t worth my shit
So why are so many people so damned full of it
Hating on people who disagree
I hate hate so why hate me
People are spewing and stewing acrimonious
With  copious associates of holiness that preach loneliness
But they’re so fucking erroneous its near felonious
Just let it be
Don’t hate me
I don’t share your views or watch your favorite news
That’s no excuse to expose verbal abuse on the innocent few
Because your anger stews
Bury your hate in your own backyard
Stand guard down the boulevard
Shoot a criminal without a card
Stand your ground
The right to kill is profound
If you’re white and homebound or have your money way uptown
You can kill with impunity
The white community gives you immunity if the victim lacks opportunity
Use affluenza as the cleanser
Disenfranchised is a prize  to despise
A head to hang on your wall
Because tree limbs they fall
Aren’t you embarrassed at all?
Skin like charcoal hanging from your flagpole
You asshole!
He’s human he has a soul
A wife and children too just like you
Seeking sanctuary
Before you put them in the mortuary
An age old story
Which is always their fate
When people love to hate

Oh my God it’s the KKK
I see a man with a rifle looking my way
His eyes think I want to take his guns away
I say no way but  he runs away
We only want to make sure you don’t shoot your way
Using a Regan Ray gun star war death ray
Defend yourself that’s okay but don’t kill a man cause you don’t like his way
With bullets and blood on your fingers
The white hooded hatred lingers
Hiding in churches of right-wing singers
Speaking of God but hating  n-gers
Despicable religion of hate
Its not to late
But…
Its mind blowing
Hateful embers glowing anger growing
Knowing that were rowing into Hell with water flowing
The hostility is showing  listing to ill winds blowing
While I’m reaping what I’m sowing and so on and so on
Woe is all of us who go on trying to show love
Man of cloth singing Jesus
Leads us in songs of libel
The misplaced preacher stabs me with his Bible
Wants to kill me I’m his rival for his own holy survival
For my lifestyle
Because I may be an abomination
Another rendition of his Heavenly contrition
Asking for sedition of a manic condition
While he seeks admonition from a burly mortician
Which is the definition of my premonition I will die of his volition
Because he hates my position
Like it’s a vicious religious sickness
But whoever I decide to have lie beside me
Isn’t  in need of his forgiveness
Because it ain’t none of his damn business
Let us live it without a  suspicious witness judging how we live
We all have love to give
Let’s regurgitate hate
With our love we regulate
Black gay or straight
Don’t carry the weight of your hate
Heavy lies the onus its never too late to
Eradicate the spite of hate and make it cease
Replace your scorn
With love and peace
Please hear our plea’s for peace

Robotic Dreams

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cyborg

 

 

 

A cyber womb
To a metal tomb
Blueprinted from humankind
Kinetic chords
Silicon lords
Created from grand design

Scientist had him
Named him Adam
An irony of the new tech age
A lithium heart
Therefore he’s Descartes
Growing robots has become the new rage
Circuits of rage
Synergistically made
Humanity had better beware
Artificial intelligence
Packaged in elegance
Cyborgs are now self aware

SHE HIDES

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a tear

 

 

There are tears in her eyes but no one can tell
She’s living in Hell but she hides it so well
Promises lost
Abandoned
Like an unopened package
Left in the storm
Pieces of dreams
Scattered across a highway
Fade into fog
One horror filled sunset
One mortal error
A vow broken
A veil fades to black
Hidden from sight
She hides alone
Concealing fright
Her chameleon smile
Shines like she’s fine
But her withered eyes
Can’t hide the whimper
The sobbing from her soul
Living in half
Chained to her memories
Despondent inside
The pain of loneliness the weight of despair
Thinks life would be better if she just didn’t care
So she hides
Stretching each sunrise
To her duty of care
The demands of children
The veins of her heart
Survival her goal
A day at a time
But oh so alone
Its just so exhausting
Life on a treadmill
Trying to outrun stress
No one to shoulder
The burdening tears
Staring at the vodka she hides under the sink
Come my best friend lets have us a drink
She hides
There are tears in her eyes but no one can tell
You’ll never see the hurt because she hides it so well
She turns up the music
So no one will hear
The sound of the scars
That beat from her heart
The wounds lay open
She turns out the light
Feels for some comfort
But touches the wind
All that remains
One lonely sheet
And yesterdays dreams
You can’t hug a memory
Or so it seems
Alone in bed every nigh until the torture subsides
Alone in her bed
She hides

You Don’t Know Me

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i am

 

Modern Beat Flow of Consciousness

People like to judge, criticize the perception of who they think I am but know what? They have no idea who I am, what I’ve been through, what I survived on the outside or in. So judge your own self and back off the rest of us.
Don’t tell me
You know how I feel
Like my life ain’t even real
How I pay for my love
With her sex appeal
You have no idea where I’ve been
So take off that robe
Pass penance on yourself
Before you probe
Two good eyes but you still can’t see
Judge yourself
You know nothing bout me
Who am I?
The effect of one passionate evening
A spawn of sex
One steamy night of heavy breathing
Dads eyes gleaming
Moms mind streaming
Waiting to beam me
Aboard
Don’t ever doubt me you know nothing about me
I languish in anguish
Despondent but real
Been down to soup kitchens
Finding a meal
Locked up and hopped up
Dragged through the dirt
Beat down by street clowns and shrugged off the hurt
Been strung out and rung out
Then hung out to dry
Tested molested with no tears to cry
I’m not plastic imitation
Shifting for compensation
Quit judging me
It aggravating and degrading
I’m a hard swinging gate
Pulling an inside straight
So back off and give me a pass
Go and judge your own ass
Don’t need your scam
You have no idea who I am

I am a child procreated
Dated then fated
A mistake of sex
But still I’m not hatin’
I’m waiting
To find out who the real me is
I was a child of Gods sake
Swam in Satan’s wake
As he sped cross River Styx
With his devilish tricks
Laughing at the trails
As I flew off the rails
Cause some joker like you
Likes to tell tales
So before you pass judgment take one long hard stare
If you reflect hatred than I just don’t care
But beware
Not everybody will treat you that fair
PEACE

 

Existential Crisis of the Future

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crisis

 

 

What is the future but a collage of moments
Waiting to become memories
Painted by the brushstrokes of the past
From the pallet of the present
Times yet to be created
We all wish we could glimpse into the future
Peer into the portent
Of our own crystal ball
Premonitions
What are premonitions but reflections in reverse
Remembering the stories of our experiences before they occur
As told by the apparitions that haven’t yet passed
Is there a future after death?
Or do all graves remain in the past

Father
Tell me about my future
Your future is your story son
Built on the pillars of your present
And lessons of your past
Interconnected choices
Determined by the fate you make
Your future will be consequences
Of the choices you chose long ago
You will be what you are meant to be
Be only yourself is all I ask
You see your future Son will some day be your past
As mine is now so will yours be in days ahead
What does that mean Pops?
Its just another existential crisis son
Why don’t you tell me about your future
My future? My future is…
Paintings filled with secreted dreams
Red desires, true blue loves, green envies
A calliope of melodies yet to play
Songs waiting to be sung
Lyrics longing to be written
Tales of joy and anguish
Of love and anger
The future is bright and dark
Full of smiles and tears
Halls waiting to be filled with family
With children pondering their own futures
Laughter, sorrow ,hugs, kisses
Or maybe a lonely room
Sad and gloomy
Forgotten and abandoned
But its my future Dad
I’ll try and build a good one
I hope we both find what We’re looking for
Me too Son
Or at least mercy and forgiveness in the end
Don’t ever stop looking son, the thrill is in the chase
Without the thrill well……
Anyway my portrait is finished
My song is sung
My tale is ending
The future belongs to you now
I had my chance
All that was to be
Now just a memory
Go and make some memories Son