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Shady Politician

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corrupt

 

 

(Street/Beat mash rant designed for poetry slam)
I would rather perish in a world of love
Then live in a world full of hate
Don’t believe a word you say
But words are what you use today
To rise in your quest of a power play
Uncaring of who gets in your way
Maybe you should fold and quit
Mountain of words and a pile of shit
Twisted logic is twisted wit
Because when I strip away
The untrue truths you say
Your double standard can’t fake it
So your singular truth stands naked
Playing games with foreign spies
And along with all your pretentious lies
They will slip through the crack
Of your Liberty bell
Which no longer tolls
Yet you’ll rise in the polls
As you reach your goals
Shady Politian
I’m full of suspicion
While you bask in your own fruition
Speaking from the shadows
Hanging from the gallows
Of urban blight
Hidden from the light
Blanketed in lies
Poised for a fight
And promises lost
At a very high cost
While you share your bed
With bag of silver
Betrayed in red
Thirty shiny pieces
To hold in reserve
To smite upon the people
To the ones you serve
Must you betray us with a kiss
Shady as Shit
Cant believe a word you say
Not left not right but in the way
Drowning in your unhip hypocrisy
You really don’t mean shit to me
Your just a bureau of mediocrity
Spitting out phony democracy
You have two eyes but you can’t see
Your visions are full of atrocities
And that explains your prophecy
Of DOOM
Boom
Kick it…….
You temper you progression
With aggression and suppression
And you need a fucking lesson or a blessing
To confessing the one thing that is pressing is
You need to have restraint
In collusion you’re just using blind confusion
To create a grand illusion with a fusion
Of dissolution but you’re cruising for a bruising
A transfusion of revolution
Which it ain’t
We’re through with your bitter attacks just give us the facts
No wait……your facts are whack
Facts you bend facts you stretch
Made up facts that make me retch
Facts so pretty facts so clean
Facts too nice facts too mean
Manufactured fractured facts
Phony facts that never ask
Does it hurt this fact attack
Or is it empathy you lack
You don’t call you send a fax
Text a message and you speak ex-lax
The only one true fact you have is that
Your twisted facts are crap

You’re not even conscious of just how pompous
You are when you prompt us and stomp us with lies
A tyrannical freak being discreet who wipes his feet
Across Wall street to dirty the sweet and meek who cry
You think you’re Goddam sacred
But your truth is flaccid and naked
When you punish a gay kid
A working Mexican day kid
You’re a racist who can fake it
But your hatred is concentrated
On every race you humiliated
Debased and debilitated
Hence our angst was recreated
You wonder why?
You’re just a white guy
Wearing privilege on your white side
It’s your skin tone
Shiny white boy rhinestone
Dancing on the gravestone
Of a ghetto you’ve never known
While you pretend you’re in the cool zone
By using a Hip Hop ring tone

You dropped a racial bombshell
And the bullshit you sell just fell
And you think your shit don’t smell but holy Hell
The stench makes us repel and rebel
You condescend atop a golden hotel but my vote can’t compel
And like I cried you hide your lies under the crack of your Liberty Bell
Do tell

Listen up
If you’re voting for a candidate because he says what’s on his mind perhaps your blind and your criteria is too low. By that misguided logic Charles Manson would make a show as great candidate because he has never had a problem saying what’s on his mind.

If your voting for a candidate because he “says what everyone is thinking” what you really mean is he is saying everything you want to hear and there is a good chance you are more of a racist than you believe yourself to be.
8+
If your voting for a candidate because he comes up with good names for his opponents your criteria isn’t just low, it’s non existent. Schoolyard bullies were good at that and guess where most of them are today. You can’t defeat an opponent by calling them a clever name in the adult world.

If your voting for a candidate because he has a successful business you need to examine who benefited from that business. Check and see if that business person is in the habit of sharing or if the businesses fell apart to fill his bank account. You really believe he is willing to give you a piece of his pie?
Dig this, I felt the Berne but now I’m chill with The Hill because I’d rather perish in a world of love than live in a world of hate. PEACE

Moms Home

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Mom

 

Home
Where I learned about life
And love
When I scraped my knee
Mom fixed me
With iodine and love
Sacrificed everything for us
For Our Home
Moms Home
She always filled it with love
Taught us to be who we are
Shaped our hearts and our minds
Constructed tender memories
Mom made home a house of love
So why did we make her leave it?

 
Have you seen Mom lately? No, you? Always busy, always something more to do.
It’s been so long since we went to see Mom, but it’s just so far away and there aren‘t enough hours in a day. Time flies by and what with Billy’s baseball and Janie’s soccer along with band practice and PTA meetings there just isn’t enough time for anything. She’s better off at her new home at Echo Valley anyway, don’t ya think?

.
Echo Valley
Moms new Home
Museum of archaic statues
Final act of an ancient drama
Waiting for the final curtain
The theater where time stands still
Where everyone screams but no one listens
Echo Valley
That’s where we brought her
Where Mom now makes home
A carousel of strangers
Life of structure
Memories have deserted her
We’ve deserted her
Made her someone else’s problem
Gathering dust and urine stains
Wafting in fumes of ammonia
Formaldehyde in waiting
It’s Moms home now
Why not give the old woman a call

Welcome to Echo Valley, home for the old and forgotten. All our representatives are busy with other family members who are also substituting a phone call for a visit. Please continue to hold for the next available attendant. Your call is as important to us as your family member is to you so if we make you wait too long, imagine how they feel waiting for you to come visit so shut the fuck up or do the right thing and make the trip. After all she’s done for you how can you dump her in our Home and forget about her? She has nothing to do but wait and count the seconds as her time is runs out in a Home full of strangers.

Parades of old parents strolling and rolling
While no ones patrolling
And predators are trolling
Looking to sneak inside their room.
With discretion and success then
For them a profession
They remove every worldly possession
Leaving the old codgers to ponder their doom
So while your out running around
Till you’re running aground with your
Cunning new sounds and then
Suddenly drowned
Like an obscure dream
Moms in her home waiting salivating
And an-ti -cipating
While the nurse is placating while
You wait on call waiting
So fucking frustrating I wanna scream
So we placed Mom on display in a terrible way
Her new home’s always cold and lonely, where no one remembers her love. All alone she sits daily her brain slowly wasting away.
No flames burn eternal
We’re mere flesh and bone
And Mom keeps wondering
Why we left her alone
She thinks we’ve forgotten
And maybe we did
All her sacrifice and work
Is off of our grid
And none of us are there to see her silent tears
A harsh way to total the love through the years

Thank God for Echo Valley, Mom needs structure to keep her going.
Time to get up Mrs. Jones, come on I’ll wash you off and bring you down to breakfast. Here’s your medicine Hon. Time to go back to your room Mrs. Jones, please wait here in the hallway while we take care of the other fifty guests. Here’s your after breakfast memory medicine Hon. What’s that Mrs. Jones? Oh no honey, it hasn’t been four hours its been a half hour, an hour at most, come lets get you to your room. I’ll put the TV on so you can watch your favorite shows. Lunchtime Mrs. Jones. Lets get you ready for lunch. Time for your midday medicine Mrs. Jones. Mrs. Jones? Are you awake? Call the orderly I need some help.
Mrs. Jones??? Too late, call the family, now maybe one of them will come by to at least get her things. I guess she’s finally home.

Hate Fear Anger

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hate fear anger

 
(Beat/Street Poetry Mash Up)
Hate fear anger
Killers all three
Murderous spree
Or just killing me
When I can’t see
The monsters
From under our beds
Confusing our heads
With blood feasts
The evil beasts
Inside us all
Tormenting buzzards
Churning upwards
Burning magma
Blood plasma
Disgust us and distrust us
Spewing injustice
Awaiting release
Destroying the peace
Blame the police
Blame it on sin
Or the color of skin
The monsters roar
A chance to soar
Even the score
Peace no more
Death to all
Who disagree
Death to all
Who are not
Like me

 
Hate fear anger
Murderers all
Our backs to the wall
Twisting fates
Pearly gates
Hellish straights
Tragedies and agonies
Scrambling our families
Dividing best friends
Refuting amends
The barrel of a gun
Mixes in with the fun
Has us all on the run
In front of our eyes
Disregarding our cries
Until somebody dies
Resulting in talk……….
Nothing more…
Hollow words
Blurred
But undeterred
Until we descend
To the end
We can’t transcend what we don’t comprehend
So hope is dismissed
Because its easier to pretend
That hate fear and anger don’t exist
Yet feasting on our joy
Hate fear and anger destroy
Huffing and puffing
We do nothing
But talk
Live and Love in Peace

Corridor of Death

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gates-of-hell

 

(Freestyle Post-Beat /Street Tempo Mix)
Bad memories like phantoms
Actors of my Divine Comedy
Circling the layers of Hell
Questioning my honesty
The corridor of the inferno
Hatred burns from every pore
The sound that I was fearing
My name whispered behind a door

Kick it……

Got a call from Satan but I kept him waitin’
Cuz I ain’t freighting for no demon hatin’
I’m going straight into a world where
My fate is anticipating my death
My last fucking breath the bottom of my depth
But it’s not your concern I’m in Dante’s inferno
A journey of no returnin’ and so much burnin’
I’m hurtin’

Facing down my demons always busy scheming
Without reason for the screaming and the streaming
About an agreement of redeeming my soul
That’s leaving without beaming to the lord
But I’m ignored because he’s bored
And until my faiths restored there’s no reward
But water boarding by the horned one
I’m being scorned on my way to Hell
Oh well

Slow it down now……
The waters of my River fill with blood
Bones styx and stones block my path
Deliver me to circles down the hall
The corridors of anger hate and wrath
Where I’m a dead man walking
Down Dante’s corridor of doom
Pays no attention to our good deeds
To him it’s just a room
Verily he grabs me by my hand
Motioning down the hall of gore
Showing me the path of destiny
My name now written on that door
Kick it one more time…….

Time to meet the great tormentor
At the epicenter the wraith dementer
Death the presenter of dissent or
Is this all just another fucking lie
Say come inside and learn to die
The truth you seek is one big lie
The god you praise is petrified
Been sacrificed on Mount Sinai
Come quantify your sacrifice
Inside
Showing me the path of destiny
The death that lay in front of me
My image in flames of effigy
Enemies scream in ecstasy
An ember is all that’s left of me
I’ve reached my life expectancy
Because I lack integrity
Failure is my legacy
Words will ring in eulogy
He tried so hard but couldn’t see

Abandon all hope all ye who enter
Too late be a repenter

Hate, a Freestyle Rhyme

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grave

 

Rhyme in double time

Hate ain’t worth my shit
So why are so many people so damned full of it
Hating on people who disagree
I hate hate so why hate me
People are spewing and stewing acrimonious
With  copious associates of holiness that preach loneliness
But they’re so fucking erroneous its near felonious
Just let it be
Don’t hate me
I don’t share your views or watch your favorite news
That’s no excuse to expose verbal abuse on the innocent few
Because your anger stews
Bury your hate in your own backyard
Stand guard down the boulevard
Shoot a criminal without a card
Stand your ground
The right to kill is profound
If you’re white and homebound or have your money way uptown
You can kill with impunity
The white community gives you immunity if the victim lacks opportunity
Use affluenza as the cleanser
Disenfranchised is a prize  to despise
A head to hang on your wall
Because tree limbs they fall
Aren’t you embarrassed at all?
Skin like charcoal hanging from your flagpole
You asshole!
He’s human he has a soul
A wife and children too just like you
Seeking sanctuary
Before you put them in the mortuary
An age old story
Which is always their fate
When people love to hate

Oh my God it’s the KKK
I see a man with a rifle looking my way
His eyes think I want to take his guns away
I say no way but  he runs away
We only want to make sure you don’t shoot your way
Using a Regan Ray gun star war death ray
Defend yourself that’s okay but don’t kill a man cause you don’t like his way
With bullets and blood on your fingers
The white hooded hatred lingers
Hiding in churches of right-wing singers
Speaking of God but hating  n-gers
Despicable religion of hate
Its not to late
But…
Its mind blowing
Hateful embers glowing anger growing
Knowing that were rowing into Hell with water flowing
The hostility is showing  listing to ill winds blowing
While I’m reaping what I’m sowing and so on and so on
Woe is all of us who go on trying to show love
Man of cloth singing Jesus
Leads us in songs of libel
The misplaced preacher stabs me with his Bible
Wants to kill me I’m his rival for his own holy survival
For my lifestyle
Because I may be an abomination
Another rendition of his Heavenly contrition
Asking for sedition of a manic condition
While he seeks admonition from a burly mortician
Which is the definition of my premonition I will die of his volition
Because he hates my position
Like it’s a vicious religious sickness
But whoever I decide to have lie beside me
Isn’t  in need of his forgiveness
Because it ain’t none of his damn business
Let us live it without a  suspicious witness judging how we live
We all have love to give
Let’s regurgitate hate
With our love we regulate
Black gay or straight
Don’t carry the weight of your hate
Heavy lies the onus its never too late to
Eradicate the spite of hate and make it cease
Replace your scorn
With love and peace
Please hear our plea’s for peace

 

Because it ain’t none of his damn business
Let us live it without a suspicious witness judging how we live
We all have love to give
Let’s regurgitate hate
With our love we regulate
Black gay or straight
Don’t carry the weight of your hate
Heavy lies the onus its never too late to
Eradicate the spite of hate and make it cease
Replace your scorn
With love and peace
Please hear our plea’s for peace

Rhyme in double time

Hate ain’t worth my shit
So why are so many people so damned full of it
Hating on people who disagree
I hate hate so why hate me
People are spewing and stewing acrimonious
With copious associates of holiness that preach loneliness
But they’re so fucking erroneous its near felonious
Just let it be
Don’t hate me
I don’t share your views or watch your favorite news
That’s no excuse to expose verbal abuse on the innocent few
Because your anger stews
Bury your hate in your own backyard
Stand guard down the boulevard
Shoot a criminal without a card
Stand your ground
The right to kill is profound
If you’re white and homebound or have your money way uptown
You can kill with impunity
The white community gives you immunity if the victim lacks opportunity
Use affluenza as the cleanser
Disenfranchised is a prize to despise
A head to hang on your wall
Because tree limbs they fall
Aren’t you embarrassed at all?
Skin like charcoal hanging from your flagpole
You asshole!
He’s human he has a soul
A wife and children too just like you
Seeking sanctuary
Before you put them in the mortuary
An age old story
Which is always their fate
When people love to hate
Oh my God it’s the KKK
I see a man with a rifle looking my way
His eyes think I want to take his guns away
I say no way but he runs away
We only want to make sure you don’t shoot your way
Using a Regan Ray gun star war death ray
Defend yourself that’s okay but don’t kill a man cause you don’t like his way
With bullets and blood on your fingers
The white hooded hatred lingers
Hiding in churches of right-wing singers
Speaking of God but hating n-gers
Despicable religion of hate
Its not to late
But…
Its mind blowing
Hateful embers glowing anger growing
Knowing that were rowing into Hell with water flowing
The hostility is showing listing to ill winds blowing
While I’m reaping what I’m sowing and so on and so on
Woe is all of us who go on trying to show love
Man of cloth singing Jesus
Leads us in songs of libel
The misplaced preacher stabs me with his Bible
Wants to kill me I’m his rival for his own holy survival
For my lifestyle
Because I may be an abomination
Another rendition of his Heavenly contrition
Asking for sedition of a manic condition
While he seeks admonition from a burly mortician
Which is the definition of my premonition I will die of his volition
Because he hates my position
Like it’s a vicious religious sickness
But whoever I decide to have lie beside me
Isn’t in need of his forgiveness
Because it ain’t none of his damn business
Let us live it without a suspicious witness judging how we live
We all have love to give
Let’s regurgitate hate
With our love we regulate
Black gay or straight
Don’t carry the weight of your hate
Heavy lies the onus its never too late to
Eradicate the spite of hate and make it cease
Replace your scorn
With love and peace
Please hear our plea’s for peace

Rhyme in double time

Hate ain’t worth my shit
So why are so many people so damned full of it
Hating on people who disagree
I hate hate so why hate me
People are spewing and stewing acrimonious
With copious associates of holiness that preach loneliness
But they’re so fucking erroneous its near felonious
Just let it be
Don’t hate me
I don’t share your views or watch your favorite news
That’s no excuse to expose verbal abuse on the innocent few
Because your anger stews
Bury your hate in your own backyard
Stand guard down the boulevard
Shoot a criminal without a card
Stand your ground
The right to kill is profound
If you’re white and homebound or have your money way uptown
You can kill with impunity
The white community gives you immunity if the victim lacks opportunity
Use affluenza as the cleanser
Disenfranchised is a prize to despise
A head to hang on your wall
Because tree limbs they fall
Aren’t you embarrassed at all?
Skin like charcoal hanging from your flagpole
You asshole!
He’s human he has a soul
A wife and children too just like you
Seeking sanctuary
Before you put them in the mortuary
An age old story
Which is always their fate
When people love to hate
Oh my God it’s the KKK
I see a man with a rifle looking my way
His eyes think I want to take his guns away
I say no way but he runs away
We only want to make sure you don’t shoot your way
Using a Regan Ray gun star war death ray
Defend yourself that’s okay but don’t kill a man cause you don’t like his way
With bullets and blood on your fingers
The white hooded hatred lingers
Hiding in churches of right-wing singers
Speaking of God but hating n-gers
Despicable religion of hate
Its not to late
But…
Its mind blowing
Hateful embers glowing anger growing
Knowing that were rowing into Hell with water flowing
The hostility is showing listing to ill winds blowing
While I’m reaping what I’m sowing and so on and so on
Woe is all of us who go on trying to show love
Man of cloth singing Jesus
Leads us in songs of libel
The misplaced preacher stabs me with his Bible
Wants to kill me I’m his rival for his own holy survival
For my lifestyle
Because I may be an abomination
Another rendition of his Heavenly contrition
Asking for sedition of a manic condition
While he seeks admonition from a burly mortician
Which is the definition of my premonition I will die of his volition
Because he hates my position
Like it’s a vicious religious sickness
But whoever I decide to have lie beside me
Isn’t in need of his forgiveness
Because it ain’t none of his damn business
Let us live it without a suspicious witness judging how we live
We all have love to give
Let’s regurgitate hate
With our love we regulate
Black gay or straight
Don’t carry the weight of your hate
Heavy lies the onus its never too late to
Eradicate the spite of hate and make it cease
Replace your scorn
With love and peace
Please hear our plea’s for peaceRhyme in double time

Hate ain’t worth my shit
So why are so many people so damned full of it
Hating on people who disagree
I hate hate so why hate me
People are spewing and stewing acrimonious
With  copious associates of holiness that preach loneliness
But they’re so fucking erroneous its near felonious
Just let it be
Don’t hate me
I don’t share your views or watch your favorite news
That’s no excuse to expose verbal abuse on the innocent few
Because your anger stews
Bury your hate in your own backyard
Stand guard down the boulevard
Shoot a criminal without a card
Stand your ground
The right to kill is profound
If you’re white and homebound or have your money way uptown
You can kill with impunity
The white community gives you immunity if the victim lacks opportunity
Use affluenza as the cleanser
Disenfranchised is a prize  to despise
A head to hang on your wall
Because tree limbs they fall
Aren’t you embarrassed at all?
Skin like charcoal hanging from your flagpole
You asshole!
He’s human he has a soul
A wife and children too just like you
Seeking sanctuary
Before you put them in the mortuary
An age old story
Which is always their fate
When people love to hate

Oh my God it’s the KKK
I see a man with a rifle looking my way
His eyes think I want to take his guns away
I say no way but  he runs away
We only want to make sure you don’t shoot your way
Using a Regan Ray gun star war death ray
Defend yourself that’s okay but don’t kill a man cause you don’t like his way
With bullets and blood on your fingers
The white hooded hatred lingers
Hiding in churches of right-wing singers
Speaking of God but hating  n-gers
Despicable religion of hate
Its not to late
But…
Its mind blowing
Hateful embers glowing anger growing
Knowing that were rowing into Hell with water flowing
The hostility is showing  listing to ill winds blowing
While I’m reaping what I’m sowing and so on and so on
Woe is all of us who go on trying to show love
Man of cloth singing Jesus
Leads us in songs of libel
The misplaced preacher stabs me with his Bible
Wants to kill me I’m his rival for his own holy survival
For my lifestyle
Because I may be an abomination
Another rendition of his Heavenly contrition
Asking for sedition of a manic condition
While he seeks admonition from a burly mortician
Which is the definition of my premonition I will die of his volition
Because he hates my position
Like it’s a vicious religious sickness
But whoever I decide to have lie beside me
Isn’t  in need of his forgiveness
Because it ain’t none of his damn business
Let us live it without a  suspicious witness judging how we live
We all have love to give
Let’s regurgitate hate
With our love we regulate
Black gay or straight
Don’t carry the weight of your hate
Heavy lies the onus its never too late to
Eradicate the spite of hate and make it cease
Replace your scorn
With love and peace
Please hear our plea’s for peace

You Don’t Know Me

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i am

 

Modern Beat Flow of Consciousness

People like to judge, criticize the perception of who they think I am but know what? They have no idea who I am, what I’ve been through, what I survived on the outside or in. So judge your own self and back off the rest of us.
Don’t tell me
You know how I feel
Like my life ain’t even real
How I pay for my love
With her sex appeal
You have no idea where I’ve been
So take off that robe
Pass penance on yourself
Before you probe
Two good eyes but you still can’t see
Judge yourself
You know nothing bout me
Who am I?
The effect of one passionate evening
A spawn of sex
One steamy night of heavy breathing
Dads eyes gleaming
Moms mind streaming
Waiting to beam me
Aboard
Don’t ever doubt me you know nothing about me
I languish in anguish
Despondent but real
Been down to soup kitchens
Finding a meal
Locked up and hopped up
Dragged through the dirt
Beat down by street clowns and shrugged off the hurt
Been strung out and rung out
Then hung out to dry
Tested molested with no tears to cry
I’m not plastic imitation
Shifting for compensation
Quit judging me
It aggravating and degrading
I’m a hard swinging gate
Pulling an inside straight
So back off and give me a pass
Go and judge your own ass
Don’t need your scam
You have no idea who I am

I am a child procreated
Dated then fated
A mistake of sex
But still I’m not hatin’
I’m waiting
To find out who the real me is
I was a child of Gods sake
Swam in Satan’s wake
As he sped cross River Styx
With his devilish tricks
Laughing at the trails
As I flew off the rails
Cause some joker like you
Likes to tell tales
So before you pass judgment take one long hard stare
If you reflect hatred than I just don’t care
But beware
Not everybody will treat you that fair
PEACE

 

Perceptions of a Desert trip

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jim

 

Homage to Alan Ginsberg, poet laureate for the pioneers of meaningful enlightenment and Jim Morrison, The Lizard King. May they both forever Rock In Peace.)

 

 

A Yaqui medicine man by the sands of an arid graveyard treated Jim and friends for underdeveloped perception. He opened his bag of dreams and together they traveled through the eaves of perceptions in search of meaning. Like any mind bending trip created in the dark it’s truth would soon come to light…….

 

 

 

The desert horizon smiled broad at suns close

Atomic tangerine beams bouncing in chaos

Sanguine dreams scratched sensory trails

Across the hot steamy orange hazed sky

A mural of living poisons formed in a cloud

Painted by the brush of the cannabis queen

From a palette of peyote and mescaline hues

Hallucination dust was rising up in Mr. Mojo

Speeding shadows dash across the desert floor

Like amphetamine eating arachnids and….

 

Oh my God the cacti, the fucking cacti

Spiked emerald armies of angiosperms

Arms raised in communion with the Agave God

Stand in glory waiting the mushroom lords command

The shiny green skin oozed psilocybin fungus

Instant Zen

An obscured coyote pants curiously at Lizard King

Who slithers cautiously across the sun burnt sand

Mr. Mojo alight in a psychedelic rain of prisms

The coyote retreat to its den

Time for some more hashish

In agreement the with Lupine Prince they go

Another hit of acid will do the trick for us all

The seller of wares appears in a green convertible

Tambourine vials of moods happy and numb

I have songs I play so you can hear the vision

Notes to make your fantasies dance

But here in the once ocean floor palace

Some apparitions and a mirage I think

Lysergic Acid Diethylamide mixed with THC

The moodman put them On The Road with Dean

Cowboy Neal at the wheel of the bus

Kerouakesque travels along surreal highways

More hallucinogenic dust

 

An unscheduled stop for a roadside attraction

Chemical larvae hitching along Rt 66

Looking for the map to the doors of perception

The Lizard Monarch offered a sugar cube caterpillar

Whose cocoon blossomed into a strange but beautiful creature

The sun knelt and prayed then bid then adieu

An experience of great spiritual importance

Outside the lair of the coyote Mojo bows in homage

Gave blessing to the terra statue of Buddha in drag

The Lizard King salivates licking his eye

His vision blurred but never clearly obscured

And They all saw things they’d never saw before

The moment they stepped over the border

Past the chaos and disorder

 

 

 

 

Before I sink

Into the

Big sleep

I want to hear

I want to hear

The SCREAM

Of the butterfly

When the music’s over, turn out the light-J.M.-

 

 

 

Just In Case

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just in case

 

(Modern Beat)

 

 

I ran from a familiar land

After my delusions chased me

Across the sand

And I ran

from the North Shore sights

Toward the bright bright lights

Electric nights of city life

Laughing in the jaws of the dragon

Breathing wisps of demon breath

To a world unnatural

In search of death

There in the belly of the beast

Putting my life on lease

Chasing smoke rings

Dancing a crazy crowd

Punk music blasting loud

Fractured bones in the pit

Because I moshed a little bit

Too hard

Fraught with anger

Driven with salacious devotion

Drawn to deviant commotion

I rode the avenue waves

Reveling the horizontal hugs

Stoned insane from too much drugs

Waltzing on the edge of the universe

Stumbling across my dreams

But age collects it’s toll

Body and mind fade from time

Can’t live that way no more

Can hardly get up off the floor

I’ve become a dinosaur for sure

But if you offered me a normal life

I would turn and run away

Who wants that kind of life anyway

Chained to a picket fence

Life in the past tense

Another hamster in the wheel

Man get real!

That don’t make no sense

Children and suspense

Always worried about expense

I’m better left to all my clutter

Traveling rip tide down the gutter

I’m not who I thought I would be

Two good eyes but still can’t see

Even though its in front of me

Now you tell me God can free us

Jesus will appease us? Please!

Was my life ever worth saving

When it was death I was constantly craving

But anyways I ain’t misbehaving

Mine is no disgrace

Repentance has no place

But I’m not going back there

Just in case

 

 

 

 

 

Brain Flu/The Hunt/Our Secret

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failure

 

A dark tour inside the mind of a troubled homicidal fragile mind. Enter at your own risk

 

Voices keep on taunting me

I can feel the corrosion

My brain is melting

Or is it the flu

No one else hears their threats

Conversations I cannot share

Secrets I don’t want to keep

Which voice is the real voice

Constant fighting in my head

Like a caged in cranium fight

Everyone just laughs at me

Whispering Kyle is insane

They won’t get away with that

We’ll make them pay

We need to inflict some pain

I’m gonna go out and kill tonight

Someone has to die

Gotta go find a thrill tonight

Gonna get my high

Just one thing I need to know

Not who or what or how

Only thing I need understand

Is who the fuck is talking now

Is that me or my mental shadow

 

Someone is after us its time to act

Listen Kyle no time to relax

Relax is what they want from you

Don’t sit in silence as you brood

Time to do it now time to act

You can do it

Act Kyle ACT!

They hate you -hit you- hurt you

They laugh when you cry

Make them pay the little bitches

Somebody has to die

Do it Kyle, go on and do it!

Make their blood flow red

They don’t care about you Kyle

They only want you dead

No Kyle please don’t listen

He’s not real

Don’t listen to his crap

Just get back in bed

It’s only a voice inside your head

He’s the one who wants you dead

Listen to me

He’s not real

He’s just a voice

I’m not Kyle, I’m the real you

Come on Kyle you have a choice

Please Kyle Please take your pill

He only wants to see you fall

Not real? I’m not real? Of course I’m real

We’re all fucking real Kyle

Each of us a part of you

Get your knife Kyle

It’s time

Lets get another trophy

It’s the only way to relieve your pain

The warm flow of blood through our hands

The same as last week Kyle, remember

Remember that night?

The Hunt

The night air quickly darkened so eerily uneasy

A stranger treads cautious along a tree lined path

My footsteps in the shadow pursuing relentless

Tapping out a caution of my oncoming wrath

Heart pounding out a warning-imminent danger

Perhaps a case of him in wrong place wrong time

In paranoia I sense the pace of his stride quicken

His destiny is to fall victim of my ominous crime

We all insist upon closing up the gap

Innocent blood about to face a stalkers fate

He shouldn’t have traveled alone down here

What’s done is done and now its just too late

The hunter is gaining quick and precious ground

Seconds seem to tick in heart pounding silence

Feeling the motion from a pair of subversive arms

Poised to unleash a world of bloody violence

A steel blade is cold against his quivering skin

Rip the flesh to change the icy chill to a burn

Warm streams of life trickle out from his neck

Sanguine copper taste making his stomach churn

He can sense ultimate glee as I shred through a vein

Can almost feel my maniacal menacing smile

Now my heart is a racing even faster than his

He can’t shout with a voice exiled in denial

Warm streams of plasma pour down his neck

Oozing out the essence with beats of his heart

Pumping to the rhythms of a dying collective

But its the sheer panic that really rips him apart

His breath hot and laborious sprays over my face

I posed him for my psychotic viewing pleasure

With his wild eyed empty meaningless pseudo smile

Watching his life run out is my reward and treasure

As he falls to the ground no muscles come to his aid

His abandoned body crumples straight into submission

I feel ounces of vitality pooling out of both his eyes

As I prepare myself for our ultimate transition

My mind is as blurry as the streaking in his eyes

Waiting for his life to go flashing across the sky

But I lay here stagnant as hope bleeds through

Nothing he can do but accept he’s gonna die

He feels nothing now all his pain and panic gone

He has no idea that I’m his murderous creep

I have no time to think about his worthless life

Its…time…for…him…to…..sleep

 

Our Secret

Time to do it again Kyle

We can help you kill

Its time to be a man

Get angry Kyle get good and mad

Let go Kyle let’s kill someone

It’ll stop that feeling

It’ll make you strong

Forget the others

They don’t care Kyle

They don’t give a shit

They’ll kill you Kyle I swear they will

But we’ll have none of it

Time to fight, go ahead Kyle

Go and get our knife

Get it now before you cave

Get it now its blood you crave

They won’t be laughing from their graves

Kill Kyle kill

No please Kyle no don’t get the knife

Slow down and everything will be okay

Go back to bed get some sleep

Tomorrow’s another day

Don’t listen to him Kyle

He’s a chicken and a wimp

But he does have one point

Tomorrow Kyle IS another day

Another day to disappoint

Another day of taunting

Another day of shame

Another day of you being worthless

Another day to make you sweat

Like its some fucking game

More laughing behind your back

Get the knife Kyle get the shiny glowing steel

Get it now

End their attacks

Remember Alice was yours

Alice was in your bed until

Remember Alice with someone else

She fucked another man Kyle

Get the knife

STOP!

No more! My head hurts! Oh my Go it hurts so much!

Shut up! Shut up! Leave me alone!

Shut up all of you – just shut up!

Leave me alone please leave me alone. Get out of my mind

Someone please make them shut up make them stop!

Why do you guys all want to hurt me too?

What’d I ever do?

My heads all twisted my nerves are shot

I hate you all the entire lot

Why are these voice in my head

What am I to do?

Everyone keeps pushing me

I wish this shit was through

Yelling pushing shoving pounding

Hurting my head

It feels like acid burning inside

Get out of here go away all of you

I wish I was dead

Then again, maybe you’re right

It all makes sense now Alice laughs

But the fault is hers

She laughs when I feel hurt

Maybe she’ll be happy

With blood dripping from her soft neck

The silken neck that was mine to kiss

I’ll kill that wretched bitch and her new friend

There’ll be many deaths

Before the evenings through

But what would Mom say?

She’d want me back on my meds

Maybe I should take the pill

The one that makes me numb

That takes away the inner me

And leaves me feeling dumb

At least it makes the voices leave

For better or for worse

Plus one more night without the need

Of leaving in a hearse

Brain is hot, minds all sweaty

Voices start to muffle

Hope this brain flu ends on the med train

The Thorazine shuffle

So many voices

But who am?

Who are they?

Which one is Kyle?

Maybe it’s better if no one ever knows

G’nite Kyle

G’nite Kyle

G’nite Kyle

G’nite Kyle

……………..G’nite guys, let’s just keep this our little secret, yea?

 

 

AGAIN

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again

 

So here I am

Again

My possessions by my side

Darkened hallways where I hide

Running from my convictions

My hand forced from my evictions

Running away

Again

All alone and empty

Every now and then

Walk among misfortune

Run against the wind

Again

Boarding another broken train

Different city same old pain

Typical scene in rear view back

Dulling pounding headaches

Another run down shack

Fade to black

Again

 

 

 

Gotta keep decaying

Rust won’t ever rest

I keep moving backward

Doing what I do best

Another chapter another failure

Did my time

Paid my jailor

Been kicked out of better places

Same old lovers different faces

Yet here I am

Again

 

A Cul de Sac life

Paying interest on a demons spell

I wish for just this once

My life would work out well

Just one fucking happy ever-after

Instead of the merciless laughter

Not too much to ask

Instead I get repaid

In a dubious before and after

Again

 

 

So here I stand

At the gates of indecision

The gates of my own prison

The one of my own making

Exhausted from the faking

And

Trying hard to remember

What its like to win

Can’t get out from under my frustrations

So I travel without a destination

Toward a universal mediocrity

Where I’m just another wannabe

Like the loser who’s in front of me

Leading me down a twisted path

Again

 

 

Don’t know where I’m going

But damn sure of where I’ve been

Same fucking tireless trail

No answers from within

Stopped believing long ago

OM

I’m on my own

A new shaky roads about to begin

Again and again

Sometimes failure is the only option

And I am facing that option

Once Again