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NO IFS, ANDS, OR BUTS

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dad

 

 

A Little Ditty of Dads Advice
Stand up for yourself
You need to have guts
If he hits you hit back
No ifs ands of or buts

Work hard in school
Don’t become a putz
Get your diploma
No ifs ands or buts

You all need haircuts
You look like lost mutts
Find yourselves a job
No ifs ands or buts
You need to stand up tall
No time to be a klutz
I can’t stay here forever
No if ands or buts

Raise your own family
Love has no shortcuts
Give all of yourself
No if ands or buts
When its time for me to go
When I strut my final struts
Smile and carry on
No if ands or buts
I made a lot of mistakes in my quest to be a good Dad, but I always tried to keep the torch lit so I could pass it to my children. My kids have kept the torch lit showing the way for their own families and have done a far better job than I did which is how it should be if progress has any hope of moving forward. I am very proud of my children despite my shortcomings they have prevailed and excelled as parents which is a job suitable only for someone who can handle the daily parental pressures of be driven nuts. No ifs ands or buts.
HAPPY FATHERS DAY

Hate, a Freestyle Rhyme

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grave

 

Rhyme in double time

Hate ain’t worth my shit
So why are so many people so damned full of it
Hating on people who disagree
I hate hate so why hate me
People are spewing and stewing acrimonious
With  copious associates of holiness that preach loneliness
But they’re so fucking erroneous its near felonious
Just let it be
Don’t hate me
I don’t share your views or watch your favorite news
That’s no excuse to expose verbal abuse on the innocent few
Because your anger stews
Bury your hate in your own backyard
Stand guard down the boulevard
Shoot a criminal without a card
Stand your ground
The right to kill is profound
If you’re white and homebound or have your money way uptown
You can kill with impunity
The white community gives you immunity if the victim lacks opportunity
Use affluenza as the cleanser
Disenfranchised is a prize  to despise
A head to hang on your wall
Because tree limbs they fall
Aren’t you embarrassed at all?
Skin like charcoal hanging from your flagpole
You asshole!
He’s human he has a soul
A wife and children too just like you
Seeking sanctuary
Before you put them in the mortuary
An age old story
Which is always their fate
When people love to hate

Oh my God it’s the KKK
I see a man with a rifle looking my way
His eyes think I want to take his guns away
I say no way but  he runs away
We only want to make sure you don’t shoot your way
Using a Regan Ray gun star war death ray
Defend yourself that’s okay but don’t kill a man cause you don’t like his way
With bullets and blood on your fingers
The white hooded hatred lingers
Hiding in churches of right-wing singers
Speaking of God but hating  n-gers
Despicable religion of hate
Its not to late
But…
Its mind blowing
Hateful embers glowing anger growing
Knowing that were rowing into Hell with water flowing
The hostility is showing  listing to ill winds blowing
While I’m reaping what I’m sowing and so on and so on
Woe is all of us who go on trying to show love
Man of cloth singing Jesus
Leads us in songs of libel
The misplaced preacher stabs me with his Bible
Wants to kill me I’m his rival for his own holy survival
For my lifestyle
Because I may be an abomination
Another rendition of his Heavenly contrition
Asking for sedition of a manic condition
While he seeks admonition from a burly mortician
Which is the definition of my premonition I will die of his volition
Because he hates my position
Like it’s a vicious religious sickness
But whoever I decide to have lie beside me
Isn’t  in need of his forgiveness
Because it ain’t none of his damn business
Let us live it without a  suspicious witness judging how we live
We all have love to give
Let’s regurgitate hate
With our love we regulate
Black gay or straight
Don’t carry the weight of your hate
Heavy lies the onus its never too late to
Eradicate the spite of hate and make it cease
Replace your scorn
With love and peace
Please hear our plea’s for peace

 

Because it ain’t none of his damn business
Let us live it without a suspicious witness judging how we live
We all have love to give
Let’s regurgitate hate
With our love we regulate
Black gay or straight
Don’t carry the weight of your hate
Heavy lies the onus its never too late to
Eradicate the spite of hate and make it cease
Replace your scorn
With love and peace
Please hear our plea’s for peace

Rhyme in double time

Hate ain’t worth my shit
So why are so many people so damned full of it
Hating on people who disagree
I hate hate so why hate me
People are spewing and stewing acrimonious
With copious associates of holiness that preach loneliness
But they’re so fucking erroneous its near felonious
Just let it be
Don’t hate me
I don’t share your views or watch your favorite news
That’s no excuse to expose verbal abuse on the innocent few
Because your anger stews
Bury your hate in your own backyard
Stand guard down the boulevard
Shoot a criminal without a card
Stand your ground
The right to kill is profound
If you’re white and homebound or have your money way uptown
You can kill with impunity
The white community gives you immunity if the victim lacks opportunity
Use affluenza as the cleanser
Disenfranchised is a prize to despise
A head to hang on your wall
Because tree limbs they fall
Aren’t you embarrassed at all?
Skin like charcoal hanging from your flagpole
You asshole!
He’s human he has a soul
A wife and children too just like you
Seeking sanctuary
Before you put them in the mortuary
An age old story
Which is always their fate
When people love to hate
Oh my God it’s the KKK
I see a man with a rifle looking my way
His eyes think I want to take his guns away
I say no way but he runs away
We only want to make sure you don’t shoot your way
Using a Regan Ray gun star war death ray
Defend yourself that’s okay but don’t kill a man cause you don’t like his way
With bullets and blood on your fingers
The white hooded hatred lingers
Hiding in churches of right-wing singers
Speaking of God but hating n-gers
Despicable religion of hate
Its not to late
But…
Its mind blowing
Hateful embers glowing anger growing
Knowing that were rowing into Hell with water flowing
The hostility is showing listing to ill winds blowing
While I’m reaping what I’m sowing and so on and so on
Woe is all of us who go on trying to show love
Man of cloth singing Jesus
Leads us in songs of libel
The misplaced preacher stabs me with his Bible
Wants to kill me I’m his rival for his own holy survival
For my lifestyle
Because I may be an abomination
Another rendition of his Heavenly contrition
Asking for sedition of a manic condition
While he seeks admonition from a burly mortician
Which is the definition of my premonition I will die of his volition
Because he hates my position
Like it’s a vicious religious sickness
But whoever I decide to have lie beside me
Isn’t in need of his forgiveness
Because it ain’t none of his damn business
Let us live it without a suspicious witness judging how we live
We all have love to give
Let’s regurgitate hate
With our love we regulate
Black gay or straight
Don’t carry the weight of your hate
Heavy lies the onus its never too late to
Eradicate the spite of hate and make it cease
Replace your scorn
With love and peace
Please hear our plea’s for peace

Rhyme in double time

Hate ain’t worth my shit
So why are so many people so damned full of it
Hating on people who disagree
I hate hate so why hate me
People are spewing and stewing acrimonious
With copious associates of holiness that preach loneliness
But they’re so fucking erroneous its near felonious
Just let it be
Don’t hate me
I don’t share your views or watch your favorite news
That’s no excuse to expose verbal abuse on the innocent few
Because your anger stews
Bury your hate in your own backyard
Stand guard down the boulevard
Shoot a criminal without a card
Stand your ground
The right to kill is profound
If you’re white and homebound or have your money way uptown
You can kill with impunity
The white community gives you immunity if the victim lacks opportunity
Use affluenza as the cleanser
Disenfranchised is a prize to despise
A head to hang on your wall
Because tree limbs they fall
Aren’t you embarrassed at all?
Skin like charcoal hanging from your flagpole
You asshole!
He’s human he has a soul
A wife and children too just like you
Seeking sanctuary
Before you put them in the mortuary
An age old story
Which is always their fate
When people love to hate
Oh my God it’s the KKK
I see a man with a rifle looking my way
His eyes think I want to take his guns away
I say no way but he runs away
We only want to make sure you don’t shoot your way
Using a Regan Ray gun star war death ray
Defend yourself that’s okay but don’t kill a man cause you don’t like his way
With bullets and blood on your fingers
The white hooded hatred lingers
Hiding in churches of right-wing singers
Speaking of God but hating n-gers
Despicable religion of hate
Its not to late
But…
Its mind blowing
Hateful embers glowing anger growing
Knowing that were rowing into Hell with water flowing
The hostility is showing listing to ill winds blowing
While I’m reaping what I’m sowing and so on and so on
Woe is all of us who go on trying to show love
Man of cloth singing Jesus
Leads us in songs of libel
The misplaced preacher stabs me with his Bible
Wants to kill me I’m his rival for his own holy survival
For my lifestyle
Because I may be an abomination
Another rendition of his Heavenly contrition
Asking for sedition of a manic condition
While he seeks admonition from a burly mortician
Which is the definition of my premonition I will die of his volition
Because he hates my position
Like it’s a vicious religious sickness
But whoever I decide to have lie beside me
Isn’t in need of his forgiveness
Because it ain’t none of his damn business
Let us live it without a suspicious witness judging how we live
We all have love to give
Let’s regurgitate hate
With our love we regulate
Black gay or straight
Don’t carry the weight of your hate
Heavy lies the onus its never too late to
Eradicate the spite of hate and make it cease
Replace your scorn
With love and peace
Please hear our plea’s for peaceRhyme in double time

Hate ain’t worth my shit
So why are so many people so damned full of it
Hating on people who disagree
I hate hate so why hate me
People are spewing and stewing acrimonious
With  copious associates of holiness that preach loneliness
But they’re so fucking erroneous its near felonious
Just let it be
Don’t hate me
I don’t share your views or watch your favorite news
That’s no excuse to expose verbal abuse on the innocent few
Because your anger stews
Bury your hate in your own backyard
Stand guard down the boulevard
Shoot a criminal without a card
Stand your ground
The right to kill is profound
If you’re white and homebound or have your money way uptown
You can kill with impunity
The white community gives you immunity if the victim lacks opportunity
Use affluenza as the cleanser
Disenfranchised is a prize  to despise
A head to hang on your wall
Because tree limbs they fall
Aren’t you embarrassed at all?
Skin like charcoal hanging from your flagpole
You asshole!
He’s human he has a soul
A wife and children too just like you
Seeking sanctuary
Before you put them in the mortuary
An age old story
Which is always their fate
When people love to hate

Oh my God it’s the KKK
I see a man with a rifle looking my way
His eyes think I want to take his guns away
I say no way but  he runs away
We only want to make sure you don’t shoot your way
Using a Regan Ray gun star war death ray
Defend yourself that’s okay but don’t kill a man cause you don’t like his way
With bullets and blood on your fingers
The white hooded hatred lingers
Hiding in churches of right-wing singers
Speaking of God but hating  n-gers
Despicable religion of hate
Its not to late
But…
Its mind blowing
Hateful embers glowing anger growing
Knowing that were rowing into Hell with water flowing
The hostility is showing  listing to ill winds blowing
While I’m reaping what I’m sowing and so on and so on
Woe is all of us who go on trying to show love
Man of cloth singing Jesus
Leads us in songs of libel
The misplaced preacher stabs me with his Bible
Wants to kill me I’m his rival for his own holy survival
For my lifestyle
Because I may be an abomination
Another rendition of his Heavenly contrition
Asking for sedition of a manic condition
While he seeks admonition from a burly mortician
Which is the definition of my premonition I will die of his volition
Because he hates my position
Like it’s a vicious religious sickness
But whoever I decide to have lie beside me
Isn’t  in need of his forgiveness
Because it ain’t none of his damn business
Let us live it without a  suspicious witness judging how we live
We all have love to give
Let’s regurgitate hate
With our love we regulate
Black gay or straight
Don’t carry the weight of your hate
Heavy lies the onus its never too late to
Eradicate the spite of hate and make it cease
Replace your scorn
With love and peace
Please hear our plea’s for peace

Robotic Dreams

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cyborg

 

 

 

A cyber womb
To a metal tomb
Blueprinted from humankind
Kinetic chords
Silicon lords
Created from grand design

Scientist had him
Named him Adam
An irony of the new tech age
A lithium heart
Therefore he’s Descartes
Growing robots has become the new rage
Circuits of rage
Synergistically made
Humanity had better beware
Artificial intelligence
Packaged in elegance
Cyborgs are now self aware

You Don’t Know Me

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i am

 

Modern Beat Flow of Consciousness

People like to judge, criticize the perception of who they think I am but know what? They have no idea who I am, what I’ve been through, what I survived on the outside or in. So judge your own self and back off the rest of us.
Don’t tell me
You know how I feel
Like my life ain’t even real
How I pay for my love
With her sex appeal
You have no idea where I’ve been
So take off that robe
Pass penance on yourself
Before you probe
Two good eyes but you still can’t see
Judge yourself
You know nothing bout me
Who am I?
The effect of one passionate evening
A spawn of sex
One steamy night of heavy breathing
Dads eyes gleaming
Moms mind streaming
Waiting to beam me
Aboard
Don’t ever doubt me you know nothing about me
I languish in anguish
Despondent but real
Been down to soup kitchens
Finding a meal
Locked up and hopped up
Dragged through the dirt
Beat down by street clowns and shrugged off the hurt
Been strung out and rung out
Then hung out to dry
Tested molested with no tears to cry
I’m not plastic imitation
Shifting for compensation
Quit judging me
It aggravating and degrading
I’m a hard swinging gate
Pulling an inside straight
So back off and give me a pass
Go and judge your own ass
Don’t need your scam
You have no idea who I am

I am a child procreated
Dated then fated
A mistake of sex
But still I’m not hatin’
I’m waiting
To find out who the real me is
I was a child of Gods sake
Swam in Satan’s wake
As he sped cross River Styx
With his devilish tricks
Laughing at the trails
As I flew off the rails
Cause some joker like you
Likes to tell tales
So before you pass judgment take one long hard stare
If you reflect hatred than I just don’t care
But beware
Not everybody will treat you that fair
PEACE

 

Existential Crisis of the Future

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crisis

 

 

What is the future but a collage of moments
Waiting to become memories
Painted by the brushstrokes of the past
From the pallet of the present
Times yet to be created
We all wish we could glimpse into the future
Peer into the portent
Of our own crystal ball
Premonitions
What are premonitions but reflections in reverse
Remembering the stories of our experiences before they occur
As told by the apparitions that haven’t yet passed
Is there a future after death?
Or do all graves remain in the past

Father
Tell me about my future
Your future is your story son
Built on the pillars of your present
And lessons of your past
Interconnected choices
Determined by the fate you make
Your future will be consequences
Of the choices you chose long ago
You will be what you are meant to be
Be only yourself is all I ask
You see your future Son will some day be your past
As mine is now so will yours be in days ahead
What does that mean Pops?
Its just another existential crisis son
Why don’t you tell me about your future
My future? My future is…
Paintings filled with secreted dreams
Red desires, true blue loves, green envies
A calliope of melodies yet to play
Songs waiting to be sung
Lyrics longing to be written
Tales of joy and anguish
Of love and anger
The future is bright and dark
Full of smiles and tears
Halls waiting to be filled with family
With children pondering their own futures
Laughter, sorrow ,hugs, kisses
Or maybe a lonely room
Sad and gloomy
Forgotten and abandoned
But its my future Dad
I’ll try and build a good one
I hope we both find what We’re looking for
Me too Son
Or at least mercy and forgiveness in the end
Don’t ever stop looking son, the thrill is in the chase
Without the thrill well……
Anyway my portrait is finished
My song is sung
My tale is ending
The future belongs to you now
I had my chance
All that was to be
Now just a memory
Go and make some memories Son

Once Upon A Ginge

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ginge

 

 

A city boy at heart who loves the urban chaotic

The asphalt pathways and concrete concubines

Where sirens and horns replace the blackbirds at night

I was positive I could never leave that behind

But the lady I cherished asked me to visit her home

Fields dreamed and the beauty in which she’d grown

Where we could be the keepers of each others secrets

Off to nirvana of farmlands last stand

For me a world unknown but grand

 

The wind tugged lightly on her bright orange curls

Sweet smelling wind pressed close the polka dot dress

Outlining her form and betraying salacious intention

A fiery red silhouette against the waning prism of day

Waiting for evening to lock tight the bright door of sunshine

Obscuring the once vibrant fields of yellow green and black

The towering sunflowers bowed their heads good night

Allowing the dark sky to light up unto a diamond landscape

Lust beckoned in the Kansas field

Two lovers both prepared to yield

 

Cicadas sang cricket love songs to the distant horizon

Tongues tangoed furious an erotic passion dance

The still night air was soaked in aphrodisia essence

Arms legs and torso’s in a desperate search of belonging

The ground trembling and writhing with reckless abandon

Where we clutched tight a duet of burning desires

An explosive vortex shrieked shattering the glass moonlight

A cantata of emotions led a orchestra of sizzling emotion

Satisfying of our carnal hunger

Brought us to a peaceful slumber

 

 

 

 

In morning the solar king held golden specters of light

Above grains of our love reaching up to the heavens

Creating Waves of wheat, corn , and tall shining reeds

And a carpet of green for lovers to frolic and stroll

We tip-toed the sharp blades of grass whistling a tune

One lasting song hummed in a lifetime serenade

The grandeur of serene bliss in this captivating pasture

Far from the garden iron barriers of urban decay

Passions equaled and skilled

Two lovers hopes fulfilled

 

But it seems nothing lasts

So time passed

An old cliché that may seem contrite

But

She turned left

And I turned right

Yet saving our brief magical connection

Is out of sight

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

FREE??

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free

 

Chained by your own apathy

Eyes blinded by the glare

You tell me you’re free and wonder why I stare

Back aching from the weight

Freedom taking a toll

Carrying crystals of your embittered soul

From the shadows of freedom

Hold them to the light they still won’t shine

 

 

But what is freedom anyway

Absence of care and grief

Choosing your belief

Monetary relief

My freedom is not the same as yours

My freedom is of the mind

To think free of my own design

Not your kind

Your tunnel vision causes derision

But its your decision, you’re free

 

 

My freedom can’t be won in war

Fought in the mud and paid in blood

You fear me because I empathize

I’m counter to your clockwise

I don’t fit into your expectations

I’m abstract thought creations

So just let me be

Nothing is truly free

No one is truly free

Except in your mind if you want to be

 

 

 

 

Who Am I Now

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Modern beat poetry incorporating a Dylan Thomas technique

And giving Props to On The Waterfront and Palooka-ville

 

Who Am I Now

 

 

Who am I now

What have I become

Every button undone

Unfinished and diminished

A life on the run

Am I not still my mothers son?

She drew me a map to Wall Street

But I got turned around

Jumped on the fastest one way

Headed straight out of that town

I was gonna be someone

I was gonna be a man

She gave me her best directions

But I still turned and ran

I don’t care I love her

But she pushed me under

Its not that I’m trying to offend her but

I coulda been a contender

Instead of a bum

Which is what’s become

Anyhow

Who am I now

 

 

 

Who am I now

What have I turned into

Vacant and complacent

The highs I just keep chasing

Became a loser and a boozer

Always cruising for a bruising

A substance abuser who screwed her

And wouldn’t renew her

An epic fail falling off the rail

Looking for someone to pay my bail

I may look like I made it but

Oh my Gawd

There’s nothing left standing when

You tear down my façade

No more lightning rod

You don’t understand

I coulda had class

I could been somebody

I could taken my shot

Instead I got laughed at

A lot

Anyhow

Who am I now

 

A Face From The Ancient Gallery

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face

 

 

(Inspired by a Welsh poet who refused to go gentle into that good night)

 

I was King of the evening

Time was my mistress

So many darkness’s ago

Life beckoned my call

I was the survivor forever

Fortunate dreamer

Age clutched me close to her breast

A pillow of confidence

Embraced me in endlessness

Swimming side by side

A vast ocean of pleasures

Drifting in her grace

Filling my vessel

Warm compassionate smiles

And enough comfort to keep me asleep

As she whispered promises

So many promises

Whispered dreams

So many dreams

Visions of greatness and grandeur

Oh the potential of those reveries

Dreams she only leased me

Mine to pay back

 

Endowed with dominion over the night

Writhing in the passion filled light

In darkness of nights

When my world needed observing

She shone her light across my obscurity

Her torch to my ear

She whispered close

“Dreams yet to come will burst with elation

Don’t rush past them in your haste my love

Live inside them and breathe deep

The brass spiral is yours for the climbing

And the world yours to embrace

While you keep your dream alive”

 

 

Time held my hand close to her heart

Laid my head on her shoulder

Tenderly caressing my soul

Her hair smelled of sweet promise

Of vows once confided

She murmured into my core

My prophecy is a life of bliss

With condition

Embrace them together

But heed this warning my love

Do not close your eyes or blink

Never let your lamp grow dim

You may also miss precious moments

She looked past me into the horizon

Eyes hinting of sadness

Sorrows of mine yet to come

Foretelling misfortune

Our eyes once met in an embrace

Together we shared a teardrop

And a moment

A precious moment

 

Time is a calculating prophet

I wish I had paid closer attention

My prophecy I was bound to fulfill

Blindly I continued chasing the air

Sunrises and sunsets came and then left

Leaving me lonely and tired of eye

Until her prophecy emerged full

I shut my eyes too tightly to see

For only one brief second

Moments morphed into memories

Both time and I grew older of age

As time got more distant she added some pounds

Placed the weight of the world on our backs

Stripped me my carefree title of midnights

Made me slave of my own 9 to 5

Stresses of lifetimes pulling me down

Gravitationally held in a rut

My dreams collided confused

Love or success?

 

Please I begged her spare me the onus

No longer can I bear the demand

I was offered beverage of self confident stupor

To lighten the load of spiritual bricks

Took more than my share

Far too many times

Filled my lungs with wisps of contentment and joy

Laughing my way past my life

In constant search

Found euphoric fulfillment in carnal release

Seeking out intimate solace

Passions moaned softly under silken enticements

Blissfully groaning in tandem with love

In the midst of salacious confusion

Of blind indulgence I blinked once again

It was gone

 

 

 

I stood still as my dream ran right past me

Forgotten moments tucked under its arm

My eyes became heavy with lost opportunity

Too much weight for my tear ducts to bear

Dejected I blinked once again

In an instant I was again abandoned

Leaving me alone to negotiate the forest ferocious

Void of strength to fight

Unable to flee

Unwilling to enter the brawl

No longer able to face the dangers I once braved

Behind me trailed ashes of my yesterdays

Billowing smoke of pale ghost dreams

Time left me for another

I’m old enough to care now

But I’m too tired to cry

 

A face from the ancient gallery sang her plea

“Why must it take so long,” she inquired

“Why must it take so long?”

Time blinked

Confused by her query

Once more she offered dreary supplication

As we waded in my teardrops she spoke

“Why must it take so God damn long to die?”

Time held me tender caressing my head

“Close your eyes my love, and let me hold you a while ”

She sang a song so soft and sweet

A warm embrace

Her lullaby was like a dream

So I slept

 

 

Happy Mothers Day Mom

Inner Psychopath

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inner

 

 

They laugh at me

Snickering

I can feel their eyes

So much distain

Where does it come from

They don’t even realize

That in killing my spirit

They’re releasing

My inside hate

Ripping off my skin

Peeling away my face

Tearing down

My wall of esteem

Their words are burned

Under my skin

Scoffing at my reality

Karmic retribution

Is coming

From my inner psychopath

 

 

 

Is that what they want

To set free the evil

Churning inside me

Anger boiling over

Scorching their world

Then bring it on

I want the feel

Of warm blood

I want to taste

Life exiting

Breath stopping

Pain flow

I want them to know

Why they suffer

Why they cry

I will wipe that smug chuckle

Into the dirt

Let them burn

Squirm

Its their turn

Feel the wrath of

The inner psychopath

 

 

 

 

I could set him free

Let his havoc fly

Destroy the destroyer

Relieve paranoia

Instead I return

To my tedious world

Meek existence

Just another grain

Of sand on the beach

Another drop

Of brimstone rain

Insignificant

Venn diagram of a life

Never intersecting

Sentenced to life

With my inner psychopath